I'm in a weird mood again tonight. I'm not sure what it is, but I kinda feel like the world is rapidly changing around me and there's nothing I can do about it. Have you ever had the feeling where you're drifting away from the world? That's how I feel now, I think.
A lot of the friends I've known in past years have drifted away so much that I either don't even know where they are anymore ... or I do, but I just don't talk to them much. If it weren't for the odd msn collision, I would probably never hear from them again. It feels weird ... like pieces of me are being torn apart. And yet, I can't seem to get off my ass to change things. I should be able to, shouldn't I? I mean, all I should be able to do is make a little concerted effort to have coffee with my friends of old.
Maybe it comes down to energy? At the end of the workday, I find that I don't have enough energy to do much more than sit down, play some video games and go to bed. I would love to get off my behind to go do a project, or learn to play the guitar, or something. If anything, maintaining old friendships seems to be harder than any of these tasks ... and if I can't do these projects, how can I do something harder?
And yet, it bothers me. What can I do about it? I don't know. It tears me up inside though.
Heraldk
4 Comments:
At 2:31 PM, Anonymous said…
Someone is totally going to read this at your wedding one day. ^_^
At 10:17 AM, Herald said…
Wow, Rhianne? Apparently I have way more blog readers than I knew :)
Whyever would someone want to read a moody blog posting at my wedding? :P
At 12:16 PM, Anonymous said…
Personally, I'm hoping someone tells about morgan's swimming expedition whilst being fully clothed with camping gear.
At 12:21 PM, Anonymous said…
Wait... I heard something about JR and morgan a long time ago. Does that count for anything? :p
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